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Saturday, July 28, 2007
2:32 PM oh godd. today seems somewhat screw. firstly, CHARIS ONG IS M.I.A-ing... actually she is sleeping but somehow everyone cant get through her... * she did some sneaky stunt last night... and then my night movie plan maybe spolit... sigh. mel mel is sadddd.... x( oh wells. it was like another Saturday plan that gone out of plan like last sat. =(( sigh. oh wells. I still hope Ky, sunshine and Jian Qing don't back out last minute. okay. I shall take the chance to blog what I want to since I got nothing to do till 10 minutes later. HAHAHA. going out soon. x) ah.. I wanted to post about what happen last Thursday. The night before, Daddy came in my room to talk to me. He start Nagging about friends and stuff. Initially, I thought he wanted me to start getting serious for Os and don't use the phone too much but then, it wasn't. He started saying that I have been spending too much time with friends that I'm starting to neglect my family a hell lot.... these words make me really sad. because soon after, I realised that indeed. I have been not caring for my family. my grandpa whom have been hospitalised for awhile and I only went to visit him once. My mom, whom is sick and I only call her twice. daddy whom is 24 hours worrying about my everything and I couldn't be bothered and still argued with him about cash. Yet, all I do and care more are my friends. I felt soo sad. that my weirdy yet loving family had always been around for me and I just couldn't care less. =(( so, I started reflecting. and soon, found out the message he was trying to put to me. Friends change faster than anything. they aren't always there for you. They are incredibly selfish and greedy too. but family? no matter what. they stick by you through your problems, your troubles and obviously won't ever leave you. but friends do. I have friends that says they will be there always yet now?... just because we stop seeing each other now and then or I don't go to church and He or she can give me crap reasons like, 'well, that's because I don't see you anymore'... Or we use to have so much fun and memories together and because of some misunderstandings we don't even talk... what is this? I mean. I always though friends are real. I put in my 100 percent genuine feelings to them but, what about them. Daddy told me before that it doesn't mean that you give your 100 percent the person will reciprocate.... but then, I too realise that I actually am glad with this year. even though I know that Friends come and go... but I will never forget those whom have stuck by no matter what. Whom have accept me for the whining, clumsy, gullible, dumbo klutz I am. =D and yes. I love them truckloads for being true all the time. (: so, I spoke to daddy about my friends and he understood. x)) I LOVE DADDY. yes I do. HAHAHA. okayokay. I don't want to sound emo-ish and I got to bathe now so TOODLES~ XOXO "you were the best thing in my life. but was I?..." |
