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Friday, June 08, 2007
9:18 PM Well. how should I start this post? emm. I guess after much reflections, I finally realise that my life is kind of messed up. well, more screwed than messed up. haha. School, Friends, family and more importantly myself. its like I'm living in a checkers play set. the pieces get taken away slowly shows that I have play my life as a failure. oh wells. I guess I can't expect much since I didn't do much to change it either. Os are like in four months and what am I doing besides waking up late, watching tv throughout the day, going out till late and thinking of changing my habits but just do nothing about it; I practically do nothing. and I used to tell myself how I want to study hard and aim to the best. but haha. who am I kidding? And what about friends? who is true? who is lying? I'm so gullible that I probably think everyone is my friend huh? I guess the phrase 'friends are a dim and dozen, best friends are one in a million' does not quite apply to me eh? HAHA. what about family? I thought they will be there for moral support yet I get a hell loads of scoldings and harsh words that makes me feel like I should give up. its that how I should live my life? thats what I ask everyday. I wonder to myself someday if one day I could get back everything that has been missing out. oh wells. I guess life is so full of bullshit. don't argue with that. XOXO "Waiting alone to watch the sunrise... where were you when I needed you?..." |
